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I suffer from a chronic illness. I was a fifth-year medical student when I learned that I had Crohn’s disease on December 7, 2017. It soon became clear to me that being a medical student complicated certain stages of the disease. This situation presented an opportunity to write about it and enabled me to carry out this embedded research: to present an “insider” account from a student’s point of view and analyze it with my experience as a novice caregiver. The aim is to question the nature of the interactions between the future sick caregiver and the medical world, and to analyze their impact on care. The writing style consists of an experiential narrative. I drew on a diary, initially emotionally charged and confused, which later became a more reflective journal. The analytical material was enriched by open interviews with two other future caregivers, Camille and Raphaël, who had gone through the ordeal of chronic illness during their studies. The first article deals with the announcement of the diagnosis, while the second will address communication, intimacy, and finally the empowerment of the cared-for caregiver.