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The painful experiences of a mother are approached in this article from the angle of loneliness and shame through her intimate story when she entrusts her child for the nursery team. The meaning of in the psychic economy of this mother by depositing an intimate story with the nursery is studied here in hindsight. The study of the maternal narrative makes it possible to identify the psychic reorganizations at work in motherhood as well as its ambivalence. The excerpts from this text underlines the incommunicability of the feeling of loneliness transmitted very early to the child by a mother suffering from this same feeling when it is disabling. Entrusting your child to the crèche is synonymous with “shameful” abandonment. This most intimate story allows helps to relieve her of her anxieties at the time and to extract her from a persecuting loneliness. In this “recounted malaise”, touching and painful at the same time, this mother tries to reveal herself differently to herself before being able to approach the other, her child, her spouse… in her humanity but without succeeding.