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During a psychotherapy session, Benoît, a 15 year-old, asks if he can paint with his blood?painting which he then makes at home, and describes in the following session: the eyes of Horus, which he found on internet. He presents a severe depression and suicidal thoughts, he cuts himself, the narcissistic fragility is massive, and the identity problem is in the foreground. Benoît boldly vaunts his depression, declares his fascination for his scars, he assimilates his need to see his blood pouring to a dependence on a drug. He wants to cut himself, he needs it, and it makes him feel he exists. The bloody blood relationships unite him strictly with his twin sister. He says that he does not suffer when he cuts himself, He suffers in adversity, he tests himself, and is paradoxically hardened... The pain strengthens him and in so doing strengthens the limits of Ego and the Ego. This is how he treats his high sensitivity, a trait carried on from his childhood, and which to him is a sign of weakness and passivity as opposed to the violence, power and strength he feels in his auto-aggressive behavior. Gazes: his on his blood and painting… The place of the gaze, the gazes, the eyes of Horus, the internal gaze of Benoît on his blood which pours, his scars, trying to appropriate a changing and threatening body and a psyche. Gaze of his parents who suffer, and whose sufferings he is aware of. Bewildered, they panic at the beginning, but their gazes evolve. Gaze of the therapist on his painting, as “adolescent” creation, and resumption of the myth in the therapy. The therapist, the psychotherapy of the attacks of the body reestablish the visual, by responding to the request of the gaze in the framework of a change associating creation and representation, opening up to meaning.